Thursday, June 15, 2006

Welcome To My Blog

welcome to my blog. i'm a first-timer, and hope that i can get the hang of this as i move forward.

my intention is to get back into journaling for myself. i did it daily for years - from 6th grade until i was about 24, and it felt good. i stopped after i had an apartment fire where i lost all my belongings, including my many journals. i think its about time to start again. who doesn't deserve to give themselves a second chance?

i think this will be good for me as i sometimes feel that though my life is full, and i have a wonderful partner to grow and learn with, i miss my friendships - those that i used to keep in better contact with, which includes basically all my friendships.

when i was growing up, i always said my friends were my family, since i wasn't (past tense) necessarily close to my parents, and am an only child. they helped me learn and laugh and live...and i miss that connection.

i think i need to become friends again with myself.

i remember thinking the other day - "wow, not a day used to go by without me contacting a close friend to say hello, share something funny, commisserate or just share thoughts. and now, i can't remember the last time i did that with someone other than hank..."

i think i need to stretch my world a bit, again. its great to keep your own counsel, but i think i've taken it to an extreme, and that's not like me at all. i used to be the one who would keep everyone together, keep in touch with all of my friends; i knew what was what and when it was etc....now, i'm so wrapped up in my own life, i feel disconnected. i mean, its healthy to take care of yourself, and focus on building your own life....but so much of who i was was that person who had so many good, close friends....who now seem more like acquaintences...and i don't like that one bit!!!

so, its time to kick myself in the pants (is that possible?) and begin again.

2 comments:

platypotamus said...

cheers, Lily! now... get posting. ;)

Alison said...

That sounds like a fine idea. Welcome to the blogosphere!