Monday, August 27, 2007

what price?

what price am i paying to get "healthy" (thinner)?

my psyche is....lost.

i'm tired and nauseas all the time.

i'm starting to wonder (though it is silly to wonder, since i can't go back) if i should have stayed fat and relatively happy, because i'm quite sick and very, very unhappy right now.

i start week 3 post op tomorrow. 5 more weeks, they say, until the switch flips and i feel great again.

until then, i sit here, drink my water, drink my protein, and wait.

5 comments:

Alison said...

Hang in there. *hug*

Mississippi Songbird said...

Oh, Sweetie.. I bet you will feel better soon.. You HAVE to heal. That was surgery, afterall.
Bunches of Hugs and thanks for the happy anniversary wishes..

Melanie said...

these are the days when you wish you could just put your brain on a shelf, until the pain was gone. right?

i hope you have a few budding hobbies, like knitting or crocheting or cross stitch, something to keep you occupied.

good luck dearie. :hugs:

The CEO said...

{{{Rebecca}}}

The only issue is to get you healthy. I'm with Melanie, it might be nice to find a hobby like knitting or something that will take your mind off things.

Feel better soon!

::Zissy:: said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you aren't feeling well. I'm sending many hugs your way and you are in my thoughts.

Hugs, Zissy