what price am i paying to get "healthy" (thinner)?
my psyche is....lost.
i'm tired and nauseas all the time.
i'm starting to wonder (though it is silly to wonder, since i can't go back) if i should have stayed fat and relatively happy, because i'm quite sick and very, very unhappy right now.
i start week 3 post op tomorrow. 5 more weeks, they say, until the switch flips and i feel great again.
until then, i sit here, drink my water, drink my protein, and wait.